Chelsea’s Blog

There are a lot of times I've had a horrible day and still manage to do something with my time. I am the type to forget all about it and deal with it tomorrow. I know it's not the best efficient way to go but I am dumb enough to forget all the problems in the world and make everything all sunshine and rainbows for me. Of course, I deal with the aftermath. Realizing that all of it was just a fantasy in my mind. It feels like a big punch to the face. All of that is kinda of a last resort to me, another way I go for is calming myself down to music and completing things one at a time. It's okay if I can't do it all, I just like to feel like I tried and did the best i could. I also like putting my skills to work like drawing and making things out of trash. Or if I want to do something simple, I like to tidy my room up and clean around the house a bit. I hate being sad, It just makes me angry instead. I would do anything for a bit of happiness.

 A poem that made me feel sad was called "Poison Tree" by William Blake. The poem describes the reader's anger as growing into a tree that makes poisonous apples. The danger of bottling up your emotions and how doing so leads to a cycle of negativity and violence. I found the line " And I watered it in fears, Night and morning with my tears." intriguing to me. I'm not a big fan of poems, but I found it through a song while trying to search it up, and that was the first thing that came up. I'm curious most of the time, so I read it out of boredom. I then started getting more into it and reading meanings about it. It's the only poem I've been able to understand and relate to. I think it definitely made me open up a bit more to others and realize things. I never want to be the worst ever again.

 The moment spring break began, my parents decided to take us to Savannah Beach. I don't like the beach, but I wanted to go out anyway to spend more time with my family and feel a bit productive. After the beach, we went on a tour bus to learn about Savannah's history and view the scenery. We didn't spend the night and went back home. After that, my best friend came over two times, and we had a lot of fun playing games and making fun of each other. The last three days I then played with my online friends and it was really funny and awesome. I enjoyed my spring break this and I'm really happy about it. There was not one moment I didn't enjoy it, maybe the beach was unsatisfying but I ate good food over there. If anything, food makes everything better, no matter what. 

 I remember when my dad would take us to the park with his bicycle. I'm not sure what it's called, but there would be a stroller attached to the back of the bike where me and my sister would be inside of. I loved being in it and remember getting upset when I couldn't fit in it anymore. I was jealous of my younger siblings for months. But eventually, I got over it and started learning to bike on my own. I never used training wheels, I just went for it on hopes and luck. I became good at it and whenever I got the chance, I would go really fast down a hill. It was the BEST part and my favorite. I miss all of it. I don't really have anyone to go out with me anymore. I want to be productive and have fun like that again but not alone.