Writing a long apology.
If I had to write a long apology, I'd know exactly who to write it for. and I still wish to this day I did something about it. But again, I was just a kid. Even so, it will never excuse what I did. I will never forgive myself and I will always regret it. There's not one moment I don't ever think about it. I miss them so much. My own selfishness and stupidity led to the loss of the best friend I ever had. I lost that privilege. I wish I wasn't so gullible that day, I wish things didn't end like this. I should've listened. I was warned so many times but I ignored everyone. Not only did I lose the most important person ever, but I also traumatized myself for life. I gave up everything for someone who was a horrible person. I wasted three years. Every time I think about the situation or a certain place or thing reminds me of it, I start breaking down and hate myself for it. I hate the person who hurt me, I hate myself for the stupid decision I made, I hate myself s...