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Writing a long apology.

 If I had to write a long apology, I'd know exactly who to write it for. and I still wish to this day I did something about it. But again, I was just a kid. Even so, it will never excuse what I did. I will never forgive myself and I will always regret it. There's not one moment I don't ever think about it. I miss them so much. My own selfishness and stupidity led to the loss of the best friend I ever had. I lost that privilege. I wish I wasn't so gullible that day, I wish things didn't end like this. I should've listened. I was warned so many times but I ignored everyone. Not only did I lose the most important person ever, but I also traumatized myself for life. I gave up everything for someone who was a horrible person. I wasted three years. Every time I think about the situation or a certain place or thing reminds me of it, I start breaking down and hate myself for it. I hate the person who hurt me, I hate myself for the stupid decision I made, I hate myself s...

Writing about when i knew i was in trouble.

 I remember when I found 100$ bills in my mom's drawer. I took at least three and gave one to my sister as well. I wanted to use them to put inside my lunch account and buy snacks at the cafeteria. when I gave them to the lunch lady, she was in disbelief. I don't remember the rest, but my mom was called, and I was scolded. All of this happened when I was in elementary. I realize now how horrible it was to steal from my mom and I'd never do such things to her now. I now know better and my mom knows It was a mistake and that I didn't mean to. Remembering things I did as a kid makes me wonder how I'm so different today. I'm a completely different person. I'm the opposite. It's so strange.